Logo

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 06:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I write beautiful poetry .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

How do you deal with neighbors who are always telling you what to do?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

If freedom of speech is absolute, how come it's not applied for private spaces and for the Internet?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Has your wife made you a cuckold?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

What is the kinkiest thing you and your sex partner have done in bed?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

What can I do after 18 cops raided my home, without a warrant, seeking a person who didn't live there and wasn't there, and also went through all of my stuff? The person wasn't on the lease, and they didn't see him enter.

I was seconnd youngest,

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Are there any political parties or groups that have a mix of conservative and liberal beliefs? Why are they not as prominent in the media?

What did i know ?

All the time i was locked up.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Measles case confirmed in Johnson Co. - KCRG

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was very sick at this time too.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Why do women like black men?

Especially a lifetime of it.

One cannot live in the past .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

‘Dirty Dozen’ 2025: The 12 Most Contaminated Fruits and Vegetables - Food & Wine

Where the ultimate outsiders.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Astronomers see the 1st stars dispel darkness 13 billion years ago at 'Cosmic Dawn' - Space

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

As i do to all so called friends.?

What is your craziest/worst Halloween story?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

How can the citizens of Russia accept the enormous difference between people? The richest 500 Russians own more than the poorest 99.8% of the entire Russian population combined. Why don't we see any protests?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Put me off passion for life!!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I am interested in gang stalking tactics. How do covert agents use street theater and false narratives to torment targeted individuals?

I was 9 years of age.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why do flat earthers think using globetrotter, globetard, and other insults will make the educated arguer fall for the silly flat-earth belief?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I think the readers, may guess!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Ive learnt so much.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

This is soul school!.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I said to her

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Comes on , in middle age.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

It was going to be , some day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But, we were locked up after school.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But it wasn’t much.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

So, i spoilt her more .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She found it foreign!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I waited trembling.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

So whats the point in blame.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He knew the spot.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im still living with it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

When she asked me how she looked .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We all went to grammer schools

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was scared of men, in general

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I don,t even have a pension.

(And it was in our own minds.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I have no regrets .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Would this be the day?

She married twice! .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And i lived it daily.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He resisted the act ,that day.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I could never make a relationship work though!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She was in good health!

We were not on the streets..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I will be 64.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My family never makes their pension either.

She wouldn,t have been !

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She loved him until the end.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.